I went on that retreat in May, 2003. There were many things being thrown in my path to prevent me from going and I was grateful for the facilitators from the retreat being in communication with me. They warned me that things will pop up right before the retreat and that I was to examine these happenings closely before making the decision of whether to still attend or not.The writer's faith and courage shine through the whole post. Women really do deserve better than abortion. They really do.
The retreat itself was uplifting and I met so many wonderful women. At the same time, I was able to finally grieve openly. One of the greatest pains for post-abortive women is that no one allows us to grieve, no one admits that there's anything to grieve about. What other sufferer is despised for suffering, is commanded to rejoice at her pain, or more accurately, is asked to pretend that the pain is a joy? None. None at all. For the first time in 8 years, I was finally able to fully understand my pain, and I could see how my first abortion was the catalyst for all the pain and destruction I had caused.
For years I tried to compensate, I tried to rationalize; I tried to make the most despicable event in my life into something I could live with. And for the first time in 8 years, I was finally able to openly admit that I wasn’t the one that wanted the abortion and I was able to express my anger at the lack of support I had received back then. I could finally stop pretending that everything was alright. [Emphasis added--E.M.]
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Women really do deserve better
Blogger Cheeky Pink Girl has the most amazing story on her blog today--a guest post written by one of her readers about her abortion experiences, and the healing that finally came to her after she attended a Rachel's Vineyard retreat: